And on that bittersweet note…
Well Los Alamos, it’s been real.
Our first trip here way back in May filled me with so much excitement. There was the gorgeous drive up the hill from Espanola, and while it was always the same road, the view constantly changed. I could never consider it boring. I was always the little kid on the passenger’s side, staring out the window, gasping in awe at the never-ending mountain ranges and red and orange cliffs.
But there was the struggle of meeting new people and getting to know you; convincing your safe, protective town that we really were just two student journalists, desperate to be its friend. There was the downside of unreturned calls, privacy, vacations…everything that we should have considered before we headed out to the field, but never did. And while I still can’t understand why the town shuts down before 8 p.m. everynight, I kinda dig the incredibly relaxed, chill environment you live by.
But if it’s possible, I’m not afraid to admit the obvious: the novelty of all of this began to wear off the second time around. I could lie and say that it was because I couldn’t get excited every morning by the drive, since we actually stayed in town this time. But I know the truth.
Gradually, I realized that this wasn’t just an all-paid for, getaway vacation. There came a time when I had to stick my head back in the car and not get distracted by the beauty surrounding me. We were actually here to work. To get our stories. Because our goal was not necessarily to make friends, though I’d like to think we made quite a few.
Like the Begnaud family, who allowed me to basically invade their home throughout my time here in Los Alamos. I documented as much as I could, and it was during this new experience for me, and for them, that I realized that no matter how much I wanted to be everyone’s “friend”, sometimes it wasn’t possible when I was sticking a camera in their face 24/7. It was a learning experience for me, and for the Begnaud’s, and I am extremely grateful that they welcomed me into their home and life as a strong, loving family.
The slow-paced atmosphere here also allowed a lot of “me” time. I went through ups and downs, break-downs, and stresses, which of course in time just had to lead to a brief sickness. But through those horrible moments when I thought the day would never end, I questioned a lot about my future in this field: Did I still want to write? Would I ever want to pursue a career in multimedia? Could I take the stress and emotional roller-coaster any more than I had over the course of the summer? If I could barely last two weeks away from home, was I more of a home-body than I had originally thought? Is this how it’s going to be when I actually start my career?
And I have to admit…I never did reach any conclusions while out here. Believe it or not, I’m still learning. Learning about the journalism field, this country, and perhaps most importantly, myself.
So, I’ve got some thinking to do. But first, one last adventure while here in the wild, wild west. Going on a four-seater plane tomorrow morning to get an aerial view of northern New Mexico and the sun rising. I know what you’re thinking…by all means…be as jealous as you’d like to be.
















